First of all, I have to tell you, I gave myself fifteen minutes to write this post. Gotta finish these darn taxes. Today. That's the only way I'll be able to treat myself to a trip to Jordan's Furniture. Where there are many rooms of furniture, just waiting to be hand selected by me. And if I buy a much needed sofa by Monday, April 16th, and if the Boston Red Sox win the 2007 Major League Baseball World Series, I am in for a treat with a rebate. That would just be too cool. The Boston Red Sox winning. A nice leather sofa. I would be so happy.
But right now, I am in an overwhelmed state of mind. Because I'm a bit of a procrastinator when I really don't enjoy a project at hand. Like my taxes. Which should have been organized quite a long time ago. Like by the end of last year. Or if I had a great system, it would have been done throughout the year, so there would be nary a sweat on my brow. Or if I applied Robin Brande's Great DeCluttering Experiment to this sordid topic, I would be so completely done. But I didn't. And am berating myself.
But. I remembered Robin's recent post where she shares this article from Real Simple that challenges you to Declutter Your Mind and Think Clearly. 50 Things. 50 Things! Out of your mind and out of your life. And I thought, now I am going to go out of my mind. Then I read the article more carefully, and realized you can combine your house clutter and your mind clutter to equal those 50 Things. But you have to write everything down, so you have a record to celebrate the clutter you threw out.
In some ways, I relish this process because I am a person who loves organization. My friends may snicker because I am perhaps the most disorganized person alive. Truly though, when everything has a place and things are neat and organized, I can think clearly, relax and write. When things are a mess and all over the place, I can't think and it really creates a havoc of its own.
And this mental clutter, which works in mysterious ways to stop me from moving towards my dreams...well, it really does have to be given the boot, doesn't it? So, I figure I just need an adjustment of my attitude. Here are just a few things:
1. I'm gonna be grateful I found my two missing eyeglass lenses. Okay, this is where I found something because I decluttered.
2. Life would not be better if I were taller. I'm just the right height.
3. I am going to schedule regular times to write in the daytime. Because I deserve it. Not just in the night hours when the kiddies are asleep.
4. I don't have to continue working and repacking everything from the diningroom table everyday. I will create my own little workspace where I can organize and write by the end of May.
5. I'm not gonna beat myself over things I didn't do. I'll do it differently next time.
6. I can and I will. Because I can.
Okay, this took a little longer than fifteen minutes. But I feel so much better. Back to work.